Church in the Pot

I just came back from church, but wasn't really present.  I know you're supposed to press closer to God, and I'm trying, but I just don't know.  The message was ironically, 'Questioning God and Why Do Bad Things Happen?"  Waiting on God is hard.  Even harder is knowing that He may allow this to never end, or if it does, end badly. I am so exhausted from all of this, and then I think of all of the other parents going through this same hell, and I can't help but wonder if God is really listening, and if so, why not just stop all of this pain?