Maintaining

It  has been horrible here, this week.  I don't know why she is doing this, especially after the beautiful weekend we had last week.  I check on her to make sure she's breathing, try to give her healthy things to drink. She drank some chicken soup, yesterday.  Though she did say she was stopping today.  I hope so. But from past experience, if I call an ambulance, they won't take her if she doesn't want to go (it could be looked at as kidnapping). Once, I tried to 302 her, because she was saying that she wanted to die.  That was this summer. (fyi, Dante didn't include enough circles of hell-- obviously he was not a parent of a child with an addiction).  They didn't accept that, because it was alcohol realted.  (what?)  If you call the police, they just say it's not illegal to get drunk and fall asleep in your home.  And I can't kick her out.  So, there is no one but me, and though I can distance myself mentally, now, my heart literally aches seeing how sad and pathetic she looks like this.  I am relying on God. There is nothing else.  I painted my living room, though.  I think the color is called 'pure earth.'  So calming.  I have to keep make good changes forward, because running in this hampster wheel can make you crazy.